/b/ - Random

I’ve come to accept society — fine, I get it. I’m no longer resisting it.

I’ve tried to embrace it — okay, I’ve done that too.

So now what?

What’s the point if I’m still incapable of using it to my advantage? If I’ve been left with no tools to fight for myself?

This modern world has moved on without me I’ve been left behind

I’m alone now

I want to do something real, I don’t want this hollow routine

Wake up, Go out, Earn a living, Come home, Spend that money just to eat

Cook Sleep Repeat

No love.

No friends.

No normal life anywhere in sight.

Money won’t save me in the long run I can feel that.

And slowly, this resentment toward society, toward the world it’s growing inside me.

I don’t want to be evil … but it’s starting to feel like being evil is the only way to survive.

Even that softer part of me, the one that used to say “Don’t do wrong”, is starting to agree

But how?

How do I play this game when I have nothing?

Even trying to be evil, I’ve failed.

It just proves I’m still weak still not “qualified,” not even to become the villain.