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Crazy? Maybe
LA9YNV
No.502904
I don't know why or what motivates me to write about this, but I do need to.
A while back I made a post, returning upon my belief, and wouldnt you know it, something big is coming my way, a really big change in my life, that can, and will give me everything I've wanted basically, the life I live.
When I first wrote it, I didn't see it, I didn't even know I had the faith, but I knew something from my past explorations, and something came and hit me in the face the way you just know it comes from a special formation. I cannot see the strings behind the carpet, but these moments are when I get my hands underneath and for a moment, feel the seams of reality and fate.
It works, there is no question of it anymore, it works by positive placebo? Better Mindset? God knows, but I know, I know and although I forget and begin trusting the old ideas of a struggle, I know when I see it, its special.
Its a radical change, this way of life, it's like giving up my pacifier and stopping my whining and cries at once, to realize I moor my ship to any port of my wishing, to know that I indeed am the reason for all of it, and I cause my own fate, in a fantastical manner.
Im afraid, it doesnt affect the plans, its not as fragile of a law to shift everyday, but the assumption or truth which I believe, or what I believe must happen or can, is what affects it.
Giving up hope is the tragedy, thankfully or unfortunately I never do, I only simply pause and meander.
I am sorry if this is incoherent to you, I started this by writing it in a book and felt it must be posted, I dont know why, its much more concise and so much better when I drive my thoughts out.
It can work, it can work for you, you can have it.
LA9YNV
No.502908
>>502904(OP)
The struggle, the instinctive view that you must suffer to find what you desire, that you need to roll up your sleeves and die wrestling a dragon, that it can only happen 1% of the time, is what stops you from ever even seeing the opportunities that you could have.
I assumed that I was behind, that I had lost something and what I wanted was not available to me, and all I saw was that.
Only trick is you have to actually believe in something, that your mind or thoughts or assumptions of the world, your imagination control it far more than you think, that like the Non-dualist notion, you are not the dreamer but the dream itself.
This is hard to do. This is delusional, this is scary to me, but god damn does it work when it does.
FoUN1k
No.502910
>>502904(OP)
A long, confusing paragraph that uses big words but doesn’t actually say anything meaningful. You try to sound deep or smart, but you has no clear point or real substance.
LA9YNV
No.502911
>>502910
Maybe.
> but you has no clear point or real substance.
Friend I'd rather not judge you for your english, its idiotic to consider language skill as anything but just a skill.
The reason for this is, that you need to have read atleast one of these schizophrenic rants to understand, and thats entirely my fault, this is more like personal expression rather than information, atleast more or so in this post.
But maybe you're right, I am not communicating to you and thats alright.
LA9YNV
No.502912
>>502911
If you need to know, in simple words.
I'm someone who, before discovering a better view of life, lived a somewhat miserable existence.
I experimented with some things that felt, stupid and delusional, until I found real life benefit from them, and this benefit is infact monetary.
Call it positive thinking or placebo, to me now it doesn't matter, It doesnt matter if it can pierce reality and cause real change through only my perspective and view on life, or if its just optimising what I already had.
I found success with people, appreciation for my beauty and just a comfortable life. And sometimes I write here, when any idea strikes me and I need to get it out.
That is all, simply put.
LA9YNV
No.502913
>>502912
It's so stupid, but the most progress I've made on my goals has been from the decision that I will simply choose to not struggle with it anymore, and that It can be done. Thats it.
I am not trying to stop myself from instinct, its so easy to sit there and go "Oh god this is sooo hard I need to rack my head over this", it feels, rewarding or safe, and this feels dangerous, but this fucking works.
I guess im ecstatic or shocked, everytime it works Im shocked, why the hell do I even forget this important thing.
I am entirely shit scared, but I am beginning to change. Lets see.
