i'm so fucking lonely
9Id+q3
No.290117
and this time it ain't about chicks. even the guys are too fucking retarded to make friends and have intelligent or deep emotional conversations. there's so much i have to talk about, so much desire to understand and uplift, but everyone here is retarded.
i'm trying my best to be happy and not fall down the doomposting rabbithole again, but it's impossible. every day i find something new to be insecure about, some new reason to feel unworthy of love, some new way to feel like a failure. and i have no one to talk about it either.
i just want someone to see that i'm trying. i want someone to acknowledge my effort and encourage me. but my own father keeps berating me for every slight mistake i make. constantly makes me feel like a loser who can't do anything right.
my mother points out my flaws, but she still atleast believes in me. but ever since moving for kalej, i haven't been talking to her as much as i used to. and the effects are showing.
i can't even get it off my chest to anyone at kalej. people literally don't even know what planet they're living on. i feel too insecure to talk to girls anyway.
i can't even have a normal conversation with these ass clowns. their entire conversation starts at penises and ends with vaginas. bhach is literally the one place i feel like i'm talking to a real person. or ChatGPT.
i'm surrounded by people but i haven't felt lonelier in my life. right before typing this post i cried for a good 15-20 minutes. it was enough to ease the pain but not by much.
i'm so fucking lonely, and for the first time in my life, it's not my fault.
9Id+q3
No.290118
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2YFHjP
No.290119
>>290117(OP)
have you tried not whining like a faggot
ArygAT
No.290120
>>290117(OP)
Daru pii aur khus reh
9Id+q3
No.290122
>>290119
maybe you're right. maybe i am just a loser faggot who's whining like a bitch.
9Id+q3
No.290123
i grew up in a house, devoid of love. nobody loved each other, everybody just tolerated each other. i have never known what loving or being loved looks or feels like. my childhood was incomplete. i was denied a proper wholesome childhood. and now i have to suffer the consequences of actions that weren't mine.
i imagine it's warm. and a hug.
kal subeh nikalna hai fir kalej ke liye.
2YFHjP
No.290124
>>290123
so have i. but guess what about me. im 26 khhv neet with 0 skills and connections while also balding
2YFHjP
No.290125
>>290124
i also live in a tier 1 city to get mogged everyday
3s7fX2
No.290140
>>290119
chup bhadwe
N7jcLg
No.290154
>>290123
>i grew up in a house, devoid of love. nobody loved each other, everybody just tolerated each other. i have never known what loving or being loved looks or feels like. my childhood was incomplete. i was denied a proper wholesome childhood. and now i have to suffer the consequences of actions that weren't mine.
>i imagine it's warm. and a hug
Literally me
>kal subeh nikalna hai fir kalej ke liye.
Not me
I lowkey don't give a fuck about anything anyways. Juts surfing on instinct these days.
YYaNYS
No.290156
Omg
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dQwA/3
No.290159
>>290117(OP)
Stop looking for someone to come and lift you up yaar. Even if you have close friends, gf you will feel nothing at moments.
Sometimes we hurt ourselves over nothing, don't look for someone to reach out to you...maybe be that person and if not just find something else to care about, work on it...if you meet others good and if not keep moving on with life des.
Don't worry about the things you can't change, and no matter what edgelords say every good effort you put will reflect back in positive manner so just be honest with your efforts. Carry on....
Detachment can help.
2YFHjP
No.290167
>>290140
sahi bola /b/hai. mai bhadwa Teri maa ka 
HycfFv
No.290168
>>290117(OP)
Hila ke soja
