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Kc04bD
No.356488
> be me
> attend friend’s wedding two days ago
> return home last night
> brain.exe finally stops overthinking for 48 hours
> meet old friends after 6–7 years
> feels good man
> walk into sangeet
> sudden nausea debuff
> surrounded by pretty girls + chad-level guys
> normally feel insecure
> but brought decent clothes
> anxiety -70%, shame -50%
> intrusive thoughts: “you’ll be alone forever lol”
> friends: *exist*
> thoughts get drowned out
> overall good night
> next day haldi
> wearing loose kurta pajama
> shortest guy in the entire state
> everyone has sunglasses
> me: “i have eyes, that’s enough”
> meet bride and groom (both my friends)
> wholesome moment
> baraat time
> pre-baraat ritual: drink + smoke weed at hotel
> weed unlocks god-mode confidence
> “i fear nothing”
> dance like a man possessed
> feel included, not alone
> temporary happiness buff achieved
> next morning
> wake up 5 mins before train
> station 3 km away
> lmao no chance
> friends roast me
> accept clown status
> everyone leaves
> alone in hotel room with thoughts until checkout
> meet another friend at his office
> smoke again, pizza therapy, garlic bread blessings
> train at 2 PM
> friend: “bro incoming train late so yours also late 100% trust me”
> me: “sounds legit”
> leave at 2:15
> reach station
> see train already gone
> call friend
> 15 mins of creative cursing
> both laughing anyway
> tired from dancing + roaming
> sit on bench like a defeated RPG character
> next train at 5
> waiting with inner demons
> 4 PM announcement:
> “surprise! your 2 PM train never left lol”
> panic.exe
> call friend
> more curses
> sprint to train
> unreserved compartment because ticket who?
> packed like sardines
> standing in front of train toilet
> inhaling industrial-strength suffering
> some rural ladies (young ones with cleavage showing) and their husbands next to me
> tell one to sit when space appears
>We bump each other
>She keeps adjusting her clothes and looks me in way
>I could see that through my side eyes
>Not saying it was because I was Chad or whatever, but she was aware and sneakily would adjust herself around
> I remain standing, enduring pain
>but bimping into those dehati boobs was wholesome for me kek
> halfway through, they get off
> finally get a small seat after 2.5 hours
> later a girl + her dad board
> girl sneaks side-eye looks
> dad notices and comes stand beside me
> talk to him a bit
> going to same destination
> small comfort acquired
> reach home at 11 PM
> eat
> sleep like a corpse
> those 2 days felt like dropping a heavy weight
> return home
> demons respawn instantly
> back to square one
O+q/4p
No.356512
Ur job ??
WRX8SB
No.356516
Your caste?
QzpstV
No.356530
>>356521
nothing, my bad.
wholesome story anon. you need to realise that the only thing you can do is go up. there's nothing left to lose.
funny, because I'm trying to convince myself of the same thing. I'm scared of making a LinkedIn because of the possibility of school friends finding that I'm in a bhangi tier kalej.
v4CTv9
No.356609
>>356488(OP)
Tldr?
A4jh86
No.356611
>>356488(OP)
be honest with your height and that of your chadly frens
EnPEsN
No.356623
Ua8zRr
No.356642
>>356488(OP)
i would kill myself if i had to talk to old friends. I hope they all die like n!ggers
4wUz77
No.356862
>>356642
same
I9wVCT
No.356871
>>356642
I hope I get to kill them one day.
RgSIk2
No.356873
>>356642
Same, they were such annoying manipulative bhangis.
O+q/4p
No.356876
>>356521
Kek u r literally me
Jaabless and baman
Although I won't be able to go to any marriage, until I get a jaab I rarely talk to anyone
I9wVCT
No.356880
Your life seems decent nothing special quite normiecoded, I leave my home at 6:30 for metro just for 10 min appointment with a professor at 8 am. I am all alone in whole campus at 7:45 am, lonely and cold as usual, my broken phone screen is so bad that it takes me a while to type number. My bad is all torn up, I just have 2 sweatshirt and 2 pants, don't even have my own shoes, I just use anything that fits, well what else. I am all alone, everyone uses me for work, have been this way since forever, I really want to see blood of those on my hands who have used me, there is a mutual transactional stuff then there is pump and dump and I can't do much in those situations when I am paired with absolute trash who don't care if they fail, all I convince myself is that I am doing it for myself and my future, my parents never understood my needs either, I can't do anything, can't grow out hair because they don't like it and ruin my life by pestering me daily to cut them, they never let me go out on a trip, never gave me money to eat out and have fun. I really want to see this world burn, more than world I want to make people feel the despair that I felt.
O+q/4p
No.356886
>>356488(OP)
Recently one of my another jaabless friend went to marriage
There, they had literal music video of groom n bride played out on big screen
It was shot in multiple countries with HD cameras,
Then groom gave a talk about how they met on mic and how much he loves her
Then they both danced on the stage
Yr why this much cringe n all, extrovert bhangis ki aisi taisi
I won't marry if this retardpajeetpana is done in my marriage
RgSIk2
No.356887
>>356880
Konsi memedegree kr rhe ho saar.
I9wVCT
No.356888
>>356887
No meme degree, I am a csbhangi.
RgSIk2
No.356894
>>356888
Good, jldi jaab paake pesse hadp lo 2035 me bubble phtega.
