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EBusrW
No.370091
>Je suis moi
>Invite ex over
>Im not coming over
>Okay
>Lets get dinner though
>we get dinner
>She comes home anyway
>we fight and argue
>We sleep in the same bed
>I dont say a word
>Stare into her eyes
>Needful happens
>Wake up next morning
>The most beautifully sweet angel greets me
>I love you, she says
>Dont go, dont leave the bed
>Asks me to brush her hair
>yes ma'am
It's been like this for a while, granted we only broke up a week ago and that too we didnt want to. Its amazing, she's said goodbye to me 5 times this week and always unblocks me.
Its amazing, the first thing I see is the sunlight filtering through her hair, her amazing great hair, I think she does it purpose, she knows what I like. I sometimes pretend to go to work on my laptop just so she can pull me back in, im unemployed, ofcourse.
We spent the morning listening to Fairuz and watching a movie. I made her coffee and breakfast.
mRYrtW
No.370097
>>370091(OP)
👍
I4dPaP
No.370098
>>370091(OP)
It is maya , anon.
EBusrW
No.370100
>>370091(OP)
She calls me an old uncle, ofcourse I dont think I look old yet, but the age gap, well its there. I always post nicholson because I feel like him, I feel like a balding incel creep who's just being so raputastic, coming up to the foid and talking to her, but it keeps working, somehow.
A few years ago I discovered that I cannot fail, that I have, in one way or other, always won. Every moment life feels tough, I just tell myself that that is not my life, and it sorts itself over, I've discovered some sort of a great patchwork of flowing vitality, where in everything is perfect, as long as Im not a weeping faggot.
My father, ofcourse, pays for all of this. I am incredibly glad he got rich before I graduated, I cannot imagine what a job must be like. All I do is work on my personal music, write, read, and stay connected to my old universities publishing forum, I've written quite a few pieces.
Funnily enough, when I stopped caring for money, it is always abundant, I am always getting more, when I dont really need it.
mRYrtW
No.370103
>>370100
How old are you ?
EBusrW
No.370107
>>370100
The moment I stopped worrying about women, 4 years ago, I was always met with an abundance of women, regardless of how i looked or behaved.
Then I stopped worrying about money, after some small good fortune came, and so it happened more.
Whenever I have relaxed and put myself in the state of being the one I would envy, of already being "there", you know where "there" is, you all have a "there" which you believe you will get to "then" and "then" your life will be perfect.
I just reached there and skipped the rest, and im already here, this it it. There is no waiting for me.
Just get there anon, be. You do not need to wait, there is no one to stop you, you decide where you are, and there you are.
EBusrW
No.370109
I4dPaP
No.370124
>>370109
The longer you engage in maya the lesser you will be able to enjoy it, countless births and same repeated cycles. It is time to do needful.
EBusrW
No.370135
>>370124
Lol. Read moar. The Buddha himself rejects the path of ascetism, I do not need to give up anything, I only need to give up attachment and suffering. My whole understanding and peace in life comes from a practice of detachment, I already believe I am there, so I do not yearn or seek, therefore I do not suffer, and I get what I want.
>>370128
Im an oldfag, not to suck my own cock, but I always try to write interesting things for Nanhe inchis to read. My father was fairly well-off, then became rich, and I consider myself good-looking when I feel like, which I avoid telling myself I am not good-looking.
mRYrtW
No.370142
>>370135
Don't stop posting good sir. I like reading your posts.
EBusrW
No.370146
Funnily enough, I have no one to thank but her for this. She introduced me to this, manifesting thing. At first I thought, bullshit, but then seeing her, receive all that I envied, I realized there was no need to envy.
I didnt pay attention to it much, ofcourse, but slowly I started to read more, on buddhism, advaita, blake. Id say more than manifestation I've become calmer and happier, more assured of my own self, it was only fear holding me back.
FQe81I
No.370150
>>370091(OP)
Sex and J*b haver ka sariya rape hona chahiye.
EBusrW
No.370153
>>370146
It genuinely just works, I don't know what to tell you, the world feels much more free and open when you keep your thoughts with you, instead of against you.
Every rationalist that I speak to hates this, they believe their pessimism is a substitute for realism, but they themselves do not understand reality, because reality is created within thought and perception, they think they observe an objective reality "Life sucks!" "It will never get better!" "I am worthless", then they work backwards to find proof.
How strange it is to see men fight me, when I tell them that they can atleast be free within their own mind, they hate it, even men of fairly good lives, they would rather live in complain and misery about not receiving their desires, than to even simply do an exercise, even hypothetically to IMAGINE anything better.
Have you seen this, Ive seen this within myself, when I yearn so heavily I reject any options, I either want everything or nothing, infact I wanted to complain, I was unfairly met with odds after all, so it is my right to keep myself miserable!
This is unfortunately the easiest and most safest way to think, it tricks you in believing you are being logical, you have just renamed fear as logic and rationale.
Took me so long, but Im here.
I4dPaP
No.370154
>>370135
This doesn't last long ,this has been happening since time. There is no I or You in reality.
let samadhi happen.
The mind is fooling itself, suffering will come again, leaving no other path .
Eventually your mind shall realise that, don't believe, "i believe I am there " that is yet another problem, true joy comes from. You do not need to give up anything, nothing was yours . Maya is not a problem,just another aspect. The problem is that one realises it only when maya gives the final blow.every soul has to go through the same cycle and eventually it will even happen to you, you can fool yourself, enjoy some pleasures,think the ego of self is great but there is yet another joy which your existence is yet to witness. It will happen. Let it happen
MXu+hE
No.370156
>>370153
Nigg thats just placebo effect + confidence it aint that deep
8PHcTV
No.370159
>>370153
Explain to me in as simple way as possible how to get a girl to like you Nothing more nothing less
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I4dPaP
No.370163
>>370156
True
EBusrW
No.370167
>>370154
I am letting whatever happens happen. But I have no intention of stopping, I have things that I will do, and I do not care where the desire comes from, and I do not mind some suffering. Why are you insistent on telling me that I will suffer, is it so hard to swallow that I simply don't suffer, I get bored, I get tired, but suffer? No, not anymore, I stop that when it grows back.
>>370156
Yea, it's not, but its not placebo, even if it is, placebo sure gives me a lot of money. I don't care if its deep or not, I just like to write.
EBusrW
No.370175
>>370159
Be the person who already has a girl. Stop believing you cannot have a girl, stop yearning for a girl, and try to understand what your mental state would be should you already be there. There is nothing special, you will meet women, and they'll like you, they're bound to, there's no way it won't happen.
But let me guess, its different for you, you believe you can't do it, you just wont be able to talk or there's just something wrong with you?
Then that's what happens.
What you believe reflects outwardly, and when the opportunity comes, your whole perception of the world, the truths you've come to hold onto, take real presence infront of you. Eventually there will be women, and if you're of the belief you cannot ever get with one, then you won't, then every failure is a big problem, so what if one of them doesnt care.
If I told you that there's always women who will love you, and i proved it to you, you would not care if one doesnt go your way.
I4dPaP
No.370197
>>370167
It is not only suffering but there are things apart from survival that you NEED to do to get joy that is the problem. Joy should not be dependent.
My mind never needed to manifest , your mind needed manifestation it shows a huge difference in that statement alone .
One gets bored, one gets tired and soon starts distracting itself, eventually as years pass the mind starts losing its sanity. Realise that there is no you and you are not the one that does, you are simply a witness. Countless lives pass in the same good and bad, it's time to realise that you are not escaping suffering neither are you leaving joy. Realise in the deepest depths of your mind that all that is to experience can only be experienced to its greatest potential only when the self is aware of moment and that there is no self, hence everything is in the now .This is only meant to plant a seed in your heart, let the sacred water of awareness cherish it. There is so much more to enjoy yet you think of these pleasures which are not even enough and contentful in itself . There is a whole comos to experience within the self which leads to the realisation of no self. It cannot be read anywhere, it cannot be thought it can only be witnessed and the light of awareness grows a tree full of fruits to enjoy for eternity each time to let the self manifest. There is so much more joy, for the sake of joy Itself. do not let ignorance fool it. Let meditation happen. Experience what God truly is
EBusrW
No.370204
>>370197
Im happy for you, I hope whatever path you are on brings you fulfillment, anon.
FQe81I
No.370207
>>370157
your a sex haver you need to go back to your normie circles.This website is exclusively meant for non sex having(shudh) uppper caste male.
H/eiGF
No.370210
>>370175
Thanks anon. It's good advice. Yoy ought to post more often in this caste kanging bhangi board.
EBusrW
No.370213
FQe81I
No.370216
EBusrW
No.370220
>>370216
"Fuckdoll"? Fuck off retard.
Ekuxzv
No.370225
FQe81I
No.370235
EBusrW
No.370244
>>370225
Practically? Its hard to digest immediately but start with Neville
For a deeper understanding you need to read William blake, advaita and I personally like Hume kant and fichte's writings on the nature of perception and reality.
That's how I've built my understanding around it.
I4dPaP
No.370247
>>370235
Lmao
vnMAX8
No.370251
>>370235
I mean, OP would be more of an incel if he called the woman he loves his “fuckdoll”, maybe thats just what happens to sex havers, they care for their woman
9DEEZd
No.370506
>>370091(OP)
Average lifestyle of BhachNEETchad
