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Will I make it to 2027?
N8S0ni
No.460849
I don't think some people can live their lives as easily as neurotypical people do.
I can feel it, there's something wrong in how i am as compared to others. Live long enough, and you start observing patterns and understand that you're not supposed to be like that. There's something wrong with the chemistry in my brain.
After a while of searching for the purpose of existence which is now irrelevant because I have to now search for the will to live. I am driven towards hedonistic tendencies and want to end it all as fast as possible. But, I care for my family, I have no friends.
It's tiring to put on a human face and care about what other people think and function. It's way too drama for me. I am unable to see me 5 years down the line, because I'd rather not exist than be stuck in a 9-5 dead-end job. I'm not supposed to exist right now, maybe I'm in the wrong timeline or I'm a genetic defect, which evolution didn't care to flush out because if it can still get net positive alive human beings, it doesn't care if some die.
fjRqsL
No.461002
I actually find India to be problematic. If only it were some place like Africa or Zimbabwe where everyone were poor and there wasn't really such a huge income inequality I wouldn't be constantly shamed and compared with other people out there and endure survivorship bias every day from my parents. Oh, and thank god it's not South Korea or Japan. That would be even worse, but then at least Japan is more acceptable of NEETs these days.
India doesn't even give a fuck about disabled. You'd see people sitting in disabled seats in buses and trains. How can someone disabled even climb up the stairs in the first place? Yet some people still struggle and suffer through the problems if they're blind. Dumb and deaf people, not many care about them. Unless your disability is in your face then nobody would give a fuck. It's even worse if the disability is hidden. Let's see what the government says about hidden disabilities. I can't find shit in it. Only ASD is considered.
What kind of stupid government is this?
Everything from schools to workplaces to everyday devices are made with normies in mind. I am trying to get a scooter and everyone are looking at me in a weird way. At my age I am supposed to drive a car they say. At the shop I was checking out a few weeks ago I was looked at with a weird face when I said I want the analog display and I don't want any digital shit (distracting as fuck) because somehow the retards have incorporated cricket updates, phone notifications and so on in a fucking scooter. No regard for road consciousness at all.
l3lVzG
No.461034
>>460849(OP)
Anya taylor joy ke blacked aur bnwo edits par itni mutthi maari hai ki iski shakal se nafrat ho gayi hai. Blaady raand shoo go away. No fap streak continues.
N8S0ni
No.461153
>>461002
I've heard first world countries give you neet bucks or something to compensate for your non functioning. And yes you're right, atleast I wouldn't be looked down upon in african/ south American countries working as electrician/plumber.
To be honest, I've always proved my worth and struggled a lot more than normies to perform even basic tasks, and it sucks, now that I've grown old, I have to get a high paying white collar job, for that I've to get my CA degree, whose study material I've always found redundant and it's just a mug it up course. Atleast, if it were useful to me somehow I'd be able to concentrate on my studies. But I have to essentially memorize a whole lot of bullshit that has no practical application, paired with my lack of interest, ADD and autism.
N8S0ni
No.461167
>>461034
I don't know how to feel about that
