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Eklavya
QSFTvp
No.446452
my parents fight EVERY SINGLE DAY. father comes home late and it's the same shit every time, him and mother tearing into each other as if they're still teens who hate their lives. two grown people with two kids and they still can't stop being like this. sometimes i try to get in the middle thinking maybe this time they won't do it, and then its either him beating the shit out of me or her screaming that i'm making it worse. i already hate looking at myself and my life enough, they just make the voices in my head louder. i'm trying so hard to get a job, just something that lets me pack a bag and leave this house and this hellish life for good. but then i remember they're also getting senile, will start forgetting things, and everyone's gonna look at me and say,
<well you're the kid, you're supposed to handle it
>the same kid they've been grinding into hell
thinking about what they do every day makes me feel colder toward them. i don't hate them, not really. they've paid for my food, my education, kept a roof over me when i had nothing else. but this endless suffering is eating whatever's left of me and i'm starting not to care about them. i just want out. go really far away from them and everything related to them. rent some tiny shitty room somewhere far, still answer their phone calls, send money if i can, text on their birthdays and necessary occasions, so i don't look like the monster who ghosted them completely. but not like this. not living inside the war zone anymore. why do they have to keep doing this? why can't they just shut up and pretend for once? it's like they're hooked on the fighting and i'm the one who has to watch it ruin everything. it feels so fucking stupid to even say it out loud. everyone else probably has parents who at least fake being normal. meanwhile i'm sitting here counting the days till i can run while knowing deep down i'll probably get dragged back anyway. i hate everything about this... and thanks for reading my blogpost ig
ZQz812
No.446457
>>446452(OP)
>thinking about what they do every day makes me feel colder toward them. i
you just grew up yara
as someone who was like most of his life away from home, mostly on my own - there's nothing worth fantasizing about it. i am not really street smart or anything either, but it does provide you clarity.
usually it's not worth getting into the personal fights of family, focus on getting job rest will shape up automatically
r16XLf
No.446477
>>446452(OP)
End their miserable lives
KFjK8U
No.446489
>>446457
r u fayush
LEQRRg
No.446494
>>446457
Saar how do you beat loneliness when your away from home? It's not like I miss my family a lot, but I dont have too many friends in this new place I have migrated to (in India only). Also how to meet girls in a new place? I badly need/want a gf. But no opportunities. Pls give advise.
ZQz812
No.446503
>>446494
i don't know how to answer without sharing more personal details but it was not an issue due to the already existing reasons.
friends, studies work mostly took time.
>Also how to meet girls in a new place? I badly need/want a gf.
can't help without sharing personal details desu, but usually take care of yourself try dating apps - ask someone who is good at those apps for profile review that will work. i don't know your age but assuming you are past your college.
ZQz812
No.446504
>>446503
for dating apps relationship don't expect anything serious for the most part
LEQRRg
No.446509
>>446503
I am 23. Thanks for taking time to reply saar. Will try out dating apps. Is it not possible to get a serious long term relationship from dating apps in Bangalore?
