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x7+j+P
No.381540
No one discusses the impact, seeing your own father breakdown and lose in life
>be me
>slight issues in childhood with mental health (adhd)
>healthy family (mostly)
> send children to boarding school
>gets ragged
>trauma or sadness idk still present 4-5 years later.
>see's home breakdown
>dad (CA) quits job to start business in hometown
>live in a joint family
>personal (we 4 mom dad sis me) family breakdown
>mom's cheating i have proof nothing i can do about it rn
>son goes to kota while dad is trying to build business
>go to tier 2 expensive engineering college on jewloan (same as sis)
>dad loses everything
>family breakdown pt2
>i can;t bear to go back home in holidays, i hate my "home" or whatever remains of it
>they just fight all the time
>dad gets up in nights to bawl his eyes out.
>see this when back for holidays in year 1
>internally breakdown and pretty sure i have issues now.
> dad just watches his phone all day and pretends to work
>mom fights with me and i cam dragged into this
> first day back today and they fight
> dont even have separate rooms now, just 1 room.
> breaking point i just despise going home now i go because i cant stay back in hostel in holidays
i am reminded of my morbid reality, of the sheer sadness that i have in my life, anyday i would prefer not having parents then this. they are there but not there. everyday my expectations lie to waste. to have your heart shatter. how breaking it is to see for an 19yr old to see his dad lose and give up on life. to see his mom cheat and live in an dysfucntional family, i have these random urges to cry during the day just to feel normal now, i dont know what is up with me i really need help but there is nothing i can do. nothing is right in my life, oh anyday would i prefer being on the streets cold and hungry and alone than this, this fine balance of giving some home and taking it all away shattering it all to pieces,
E21mso
No.381545
This cannot be fucking real man. Why are you still drowning money into education when you're bankrupt and shit
Fo8Fgg
No.381549
>>381540(OP)
abe chup kar na lawde
go get a fucking job and start earning
build your own identity , status, power and home
only a strong men can fix a family like this
u cant do shit
nhi to rota re
ZfykUl
No.381562
Damn this is fucked up yaara, hope you figure it out.
>>381540(OP)
+KCINx
No.381563
>>381540(OP)
I have seen this thread before.
x7+j+P
No.381573
>>381545
its an education loan taken on me itself, it was taken last year where there was "business" still didn;t have money for engineering back then
if i quit now we'd have to start paying bank preimuims for the first fees money which we don't have. i am on borrowed time and this isn;t even the biggest of my worries
UWNMXc
No.381574
>>381549
this guy knows. bonds arent real, you can kill a bond so quickyly and coldly that took years to warmup.
look man, you are not your family, you are not your baap, if you feel sympathy for your baap, get a good fucking job and tell him to ditch his family and enjoy whatever life is left.
x7+j+P
No.381581
i am not looking for sympathy i just wanted somewhere to dump my thoughts and what better place than this dumpster
>>381549
get a "job"
dude i am a second year electrical eng student, ain't no one hiring me,
moreover those 30k jobs ain't worth quitting my engineering for cause there's no way i would be able to pay the premiums on the existing loans anyway
+ my no way my parents would be okay with that i don;t wanna hurt them more
<muhh bro grow a spine
no fuck you.
Fo8Fgg
No.381584
>>381574
OP has nothig to lose breaking the bond. Neither his family can take anything from him nor he gets anything for staying. If by chance he gets lucky and successful , he can build back the family , whatever pieces remains.
Start earning.
UWNMXc
No.381585
>>381581
keep your grades up, i would say dont even let them go below 8.5, try to push above 9+ every sem.
2mGAUe
No.381586
>>381540(OP)
>>dad (CA)
Enough read. Don't care + fuck you + die niiigger + you deserve all that shit
UWNMXc
No.381589
>>381584
i agree, most people never take action because it hurts "feefees" of their "loved" ones. i dont remember anyfaggot "loved" one ever helping me out or guiding me to to growth.
x7+j+P
No.381591
>>381585
the neat part ?
i am diagnosed adhd ( we dont speak about it )
i make spice simulations and do robotics and embedded
i am prolly a 6 point 5 something after this semester
home for holidays they fought on my first day back home ( i reached today morning)
7KPY1n
No.381593
>>381573
If I were you I'd become a criminal. Like armed robbery, they rarely get caught. But yeah you need atleast three criminal friends
Fo8Fgg
No.381599
x7+j+P
No.381601
7KPY1n
No.381603
>>381599
Chup saale demoralizer
x7+j+P
No.381605
>>381599
electrical hai bhai, its not a dehati college department highest hi 8point something jaata hai
UWNMXc
No.381606
>>381591
how are you treated at home? my sound harsh but stop thinking your parents will do best for you and they want "best" for you, what i am saying isnt projection either, its a common scene in most families in india, many youngguys are way too afraid to take decisions that might make their "loved" ones feel distant to them.
also try to apply for startups for emedded dev internships or just any work or guidance from them, just cold mail their founders and managers, devs. if you think you have skills then show them to people working in startups and MNCs by cold mailing them, asking for opportunities, guidance, dont feel any shame or hesitation in doing so, many wont reply or ignore but you gotta focus on those that help you out.
>home for holidays they fought on my first day back home ( i reached today morning)
its same as always, my parents do kalesh about literally nothing at 5 am and it oftens kill my sleep.
7KPY1n
No.381607
>>381601
They RARELY get caught, that's the point. Especially those who rob homes in tier 3 cities / towns
UWNMXc
No.381610
>>381606
op i advice you to be active on shitter and stay in touch with startups in robotics and emedded dev, they are definitely help you out.
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Bt4VLK
No.381613
>>381540(OP)
job karle bhai its that easy.
jab ghar mein regular cash aayega to baak ki to saari problem settle ho jaayegi or mummy ka chodh de,i know its hard but you cant do anything.
ive learnt one thing ,if man cheats its mainly physical we act on iur urges but when woman cheats its mostly emotional and theres no coming back.
jo hai usse kam chla le or kuch nahi ho skta
Tu apne haalaat theek kar baap ko sath me rkhlena
x7+j+P
No.381617
>>381606
>how are you treated at home
i am not treated bad , i just maybe sometimes wanna be like my peers and have a loving home to go back to.
maybe go on some family holiday,
uk maybe have my dad show some concern for me and not always get worked up over the most little things, see my dad not give up on life, its very heartbreaking to see your own dad break.
i cannot tell him about mom rn maybe when its time.
i just wanna feel normal man... the life i had 5-6 years ago have regular dreams
2mGAUe
No.381618
>>381607
>Especially those who rob homes in tier 3 cities / towns
Pakde jane paar mexican cartel level torture bhi hota hai tier 3s towns me. Aur police ki remand alag
x7+j+P
No.381621
how do i let go of my parents man. i just wanna be held and be told its gonna be okay once. not overthink about the most basic shit.
UWNMXc
No.381627
>>381621
it wont be same as ever, just stay at hostel, you are still lucky to not be stuck at home and be a dayscholar like me.
get a job also.
OoQ+5k
No.381636
OP your c@ste?
Also do you people don't have any generational wealth
B1ghnT
No.381808
>>381586
y r u mad
4DZkXK
No.381809
>>381591
Buy caffeine pills, they are pretty cheap. I also have adhd and used energy drinks to focus. Caffeine pills are much cheaper. Good luck man, I wish you the best, I have adhd as well (clinically diagnosed).
tP1amG
No.381811
