/gen/ - General

>be me

>class 9

>like this marathi girl in my section after getting the sections changed in 9th

>was not the best looking girl in class

>was famous, was a stacy because telegubros were drooling over her

>inflated ego

>joined the male friend group she usually talked with in socials

>i had no socials

>never got that much chance to talk w her in 9th

>the friend group used to use me as i was the rattu nerd

>leave the old section chill friend group as now i was among the ESTEEMED

>was really high iqed back then could solve jee lvl ques at the start of the year

>get more close to the group and try to blend in by replicating their habits

>become a apparent back bencher

>ff to 9th finals

>didnt study shit

>people who were behind me got ahead

>ff to 10th starting

>virus from cheen takes over

>maha modi announces gharbandi

>open socials

>add her main and private account

>felt privileged

>after one month, add her priv on close friends at night

>sleep

>next day see her account name as "urnotclose"

>whole world comes down

>never in my life ive ever faced a rejection

>start overthinking and create scenarios where i get good in her eyes again

>used to watch anime since 8th but started binging more

>litr 7 months went by thinking how could i please her

>get into states where i just called her didi

>she thinks im weirder and ghosts me

>the walls has been shattered

>loose grades, this was the mental field of a kid who was extremely talented when he was young and has just faced rejection for the first time in life

>starts distancing from my apparent friends cause the girl and this grp was v close and i lived in the paranoia that theyd know too

>after 7-8 months, watched the old rishvi saab to get into a mental frame that i was better that these people

>got catfished on omegle and joined this discord server, where i found t

>>9560(OP)

Continue, I am interested.

>though had bad grades and wouldnt have passed the grade but they passed everyone

>that transition from summer to winter was pretty good probably the last unbothered time of my life

>took science, wanted to do something new as everybody in my family did commerce

>gotten more into this internet shithole

>gotten more egoistic as i was this entitled mafia on the estreets of discordia

>join a sri chaitanya, subhuman teachers, didnt learn the concept

>nov2021, started a meme page

>dec 2021, meet ishita

>jan 2022, meet nishita

>get close with nishita at first, one of the first true female interactions of my life

>she was online chronically since 2017

>bengali

>became my source of validation

>was deep into psychology

>reignited my interest in psych-phil stuff

> talked to her till early feb 2022

>deactivated accnt becaus eof muhhh JEE muhhh rat race

> come back at the end of may

>not a day passed without thinking about her

>daydreamed

>started talking again in late may 2022

>talked till august 8th

>during this time she gave mixed signals

>she probably fell for me but ive gotten more philosophical, became dry, we used to discuss music, psych, phil

> suddenly deactivate cause muhhh jee muhhh rat race

>never talked to her again

>initiated convo once but she deactivated her account everytime

>probably was taking her revenge for me deactivating account

>give my account to a guy 4 years ypunger to me

>i was a godfather to him, groomed this kid and improvised his taste

>he bags all the bad hoes

>comeback on the account, still doesnt talk to me

>be 2022 july, ishita lore

>she was into me

>was goodlooking but didnt find the connection

>nishita was still the thing for me

>gotten close with ishita during that time, exchanged numbers

>one day asked are you obsessed with me

>she deactivated her account

>then coming back to the

>again overthinking starts

>start skipping classes

>try ways to please her in my mind

>reached dec 2022

>nta release jee dates before a month

>my father and uncle both get very ill

>grandpa is retarded literaly

>need to watch dookan

>literaly every 15 mintues we had (by the way I am a nigger)s

>20 mins work took 1 hour time because od retarded grandpa and cant even raise my voice against him as he had anger issues

>everyday goes wasted

>reach the date

>cry and assure that ill do it in the second attempt

>get into vidya

>jee results come

>mfw 73 percentile

>really had under 1000 potential but lost it

>used to seethe daily thinking that the kid talked to her whereas i got cucked

>talk to kid after 5 months

>mfw the exchanged numbers

>mfw they are very close

>mfw they know where each other live

>get into spirituality though

>recently knew that someone did kaala jaadu on me

>had schizo episodes

>return to normal

>retarded coaching used to threaten me daily that i wont get my hall ticket because low attendance

>dad nags me daily on how i couldnt clear jee and now the coaching wont give me hallticket

>3 years of being online chronically couldnt vanish in 2 days

>wasted time

>fuckup my boards

>fuckup mains second attempt

>dads nags me on a constant basis that i havent cleared cutoff

>boards result come

>got decent

>jee scorecard comes didntqualify

>OMGG BITS IS ON PAR WITH TOP 7 IITS

>give bitsat

>get172 in the first attempt

>omg ab karna padega

>wasnt serious at all

>surfed through dating sites

>talked with hoes

>fucked bits second attempt with 171 as score

>"no problem through last year's cutoffs i might get into bits with this"

>3 iterations of bits get done

>no seat

>get tensed

>assure my parents that ill get it referring to last year's trends

>mfw i get noone in the later

>>9573

When are you roping then? You didn't even get to taste piss coming out of her stinking pussy. Holy fuck this level of simping is cancerous.

>be me in kaalej

>acing classes

>high iqed way too ahead of the crowd

>start "preparing for mains"

>find naarthie group

>share all this retarded clownery happened to me in my life

>people consider me weak

>mfw my views dont get heard

>hate the crowd more but hang out with them cause needed a group

>fought with this one retarded room temperature guy after making him seethe

>threw equal punches

>decided to never go to that group and just interact with my classmate who was in that group

>deactiavted socials

>life was chill

>didnt study

>procrastinated

>then comes navratri

>i do garba really well

>garba event in kaalej

>get foid interaction

>mostly from seniors

>omg this is good

>be on cloud9 for weeks

>go to house for behen ka engagement

>family issues because of my grandpa since birth

>nobody in extended family comes to help us

>parents take their shit on me

>pressurecooked

>go to kaalej back

>this group started cutting off me from the events

>smartly broke off relationships w people

>starting focusing on jee

>wasnt that good

>not consistent half baked

>ff to jan 2024

>go to home

>get some peace and do study

>does good get 97 percentile

>say to dad, he says ok beta and cuts phone

>get teary

>go to gym

>life was good back then too

>progress and gymbros

>come feb 2024

>behen ki shaadi

>go to home

>havent developed skills because of ratrace

>whole family thinks im a dissapointment as they didnt knew about jee before i did it and i am not that good in their terms

>sisters make me cry and remind me of how big of a failure i was

>i alienated myself from the family during the urnotclose period, after thatn never got chance

>this separation made them forget about my existence

>used to get nagged on how i was incompatible and how my dad works hard

>ff to beh

>>9577

okay this is enough for murder-suicide

>wanted to runaway from my family

>marriage gets over

>stalk and find nishitas account

>talk to her

>i talked to her before in june 2023 and she said i thought i killed myself

>deactivated my account in june

>came in july but she ghosted

>didnt feel anything

>talked w her again

>she deactivated after seeing how much ive grown and how short her dick has fallen into

>i feel bad though, facing rejection again

>have water crisis in kaalej and we do viva la vida and protest, break shit

>craziest night of my life

>this needs another greentext maybe someday later

>sends us home

>2nd attempt time

>laze my days because of the same dukan pe lago

>write, went pretty decent

>mfw same score as before

>mfw 91 percentile

>get 43k rank due to 14L chammars giving jee

>now again so many functions

>uncle gets ill

>father alone in dukan

>retarded grandpa who gets schizo episodes

>cant really study for advanced even though i got the strength

>falling into the dating apps,vidya hole again

>father makes me do errands for 14 hours a day

>mfw cry myself to sleep daily on how the day is wasted

>bland days remind me of nishita

>not a week has gone by of me thinking about her

>fuck man how to move on

man i just want to give this exam and really fight for something once in my life

ive missed out other things

1. ishita confessed to me of her crush on me on my birthday one year later and she has a boyfriend now

feelsbadman

>>9575

it was not at all simping

i just miss the times w her

she is somewhat a 4 or 5

LTB probably

>>9582

Just rape her and move on

wtf are you crying for

>>9586

you wouldn't get it anon

>>9586

ok but how to move on, how to get into that state of mind? Is it like maa chudaye?

>>9588

Focus your energy on a new girl or better if you tie it to a goal or a hobby

Women are not worth your time anymore

They are a ticking time bomb

You could end up in jail for smallest of things

>saved into inch stories folder

>>9588

> how to move on

Just let go of your ego

>>10158

please explain more ive become a low iq mmummer

>>9560(OP)

high quality thread, appreciate it. was a nice read. relatable.

fuck you man, all you zooms zooms have such interesting lives

mfw wasted my 12th and drop in fapping to porn

>>9577

tf man, 97 percentile and still a disappointment?

had I got that much my parents would have given me a seperate gaming room with ps5 and 4060ti

Btw can you marathi(by the way I am a nigger)s please stop calling 11th and 12th kalej. That isn't kalej

>>10323

>Btw can you marathi(by the way I am a (by the way I am a nigger))s please stop calling 11th and 12th kalej. That isn't kalej

actually some parts have been omitted out i dont know how but, ive joined a tier 2.5 kaalej with 5L+ fees, now read that agian

wait lemme correct it

after the first greentext wall

i got catfished by a under 12 kid on dc

understood the whole internet iceberg

felt true brotherhood back then

then summer to may

>>10323

what do you call it, then. thanks to you chaps I have begun referring to both 11th/12th and university as kalej

>>9560(OP)

>>9571

>>9573

>>9577

ITT:

>simp for foid, get heartbroken and exploited

>simp for foid: the sequel, but this time fuck up my marks

>tell kalej about my chronicles of simping

>dont explain significance of 97%ile to retarded family

(maybe your family is beyond retarded, ill give you that one)

>simp for foid: rejection of the seethe

apart from you family being retarded, most of this greentext is just you simping and fucking yourself over a foid. lame ass greentext.

>>10796

true anon ive been a simp when I think of it